January 02, 2024, a day I had eagerly anticipated for months. The thrill of receiving the first written interview invitation from York Region filled me with an indescribable joy. It was a moment that sent me twirling in a dance of elation, and there, in front of T&T, Dudu and I celebrated this small victory. Cloud nine didn't seem high enough to encapsulate the emotions that surged through me.
Four months of waiting, wondering, and worrying finally led to this moment. I had almost resigned myself to the idea that perhaps an interview with York Region was not in the cards for me. But here it was, a glimmer of hope that reignited my dreams of returning to the Greater Toronto Area (GTA). The prospect of leaving behind the solitude I experienced in Niagara was a beacon of light.
Living in Niagara had its own set of challenges. Loneliness, I realized, could be one of the most disheartening things in the world. The move to Niagara had prompted me to reflect on the notion that life shouldn't be solely about work. Deep down, I've always known this truth, but circumstances seemed to have cornered me into a position where work took precedence.
The struggles with the previous school, the rejections from kindergartens, and the subsequent dent in my confidence added layers of complexity to my journey. People around me insisted that working in the school board would guarantee stability and a promising future. Yet, as I immersed myself in the role of a supply teacher in Niagara, I discovered that the reality was far from enjoyable or fulfilling.
Sure, the daily salary was relatively better than the private school market, but the sense of accomplishment and joy in teaching were conspicuously absent. The schools lacked resources, especially considering the influx of immigrants. Portable classrooms, small and dim, failed to create an optimal learning environment. The shortage of laptops, books, and exercises highlighted the stark challenges faced by both educators and students. Witnessing this disparity left me wondering how students could truly learn, particularly the art of writing.
As I prepare for the upcoming interview with York Region District School Board (YRDSB) and Peel District School Board (PDSB) for a secondary occasional teaching position, I find myself grappling with mixed emotions. The prospect of a stable and prospective life looms ahead, yet I question whether it aligns with my ideals of meaningful and fulfilling work.
Dear Lord, guide me through these interviews, grant me the courage to navigate the path ahead, and help me make choices that resonate with my values and aspirations.