Anniversary

Today, I finally have a moment to jot down our anniversary day (Yay!!), which happened on March 3. It has been a year... Thank you Lord for giving us a year together. I always pray for a kind-hearted and loving man to love and cherish. I thank the Lord from the bottom of my heart for this arrangement in my life. It was a special day, a milestone that I had longed for...

Being with him, every day feels special, even though he sometimes complains that we don't have enough quality time together. But isn't life filled with chores, cooking, and cleaning? I want to remember his request and strive to provide a nice living environment with good food and, most importantly, some quality time together.

  

I was especially grateful for his visit to Niagara because he had just sent me back a few days ago, and there he was again. I suggested we postpone the celebration, but he insisted on coming. We went to Starbucks for coffee and chocolate, did some shopping at Hudson's Bay, and had a lovely time together. I hope he felt the same way. 

This picture was taken while we were trying out a bed mattress, and I said I hoped we could also sleep together until the day we were 80 years old. He suddenly became emotional and cried. Whenever I saw him crying, I cried too. It's a lovely photo. To be honest, if people can sleep next to each other when they are in the hospital, it's a blessing... I would rather die next to my lover than die in any accidents...

As we sat on the couch or the bed, I couldn't help but picture our future home after marriage. What a delightful activity! We went for dinner at Corso and enjoyed a special, nice red wine. Sometimes, though, my inner thoughts wander, and I worry that maybe he doesn't see me as the right fit due to our different races. Maybe he's still enjoying being single, or perhaps I've given him too much stress. I know I shouldn't doubt myself in a relationship, but his concerns about mixed babies have constantly made me question our future. I even thought about not having children to ease his fears, but the idea left me sobbing and depressed.

I am so happy he proves to me that there is actually someone like him on Earth. I often felt in the dark when I realized the world is much uglier than I thought and even the past people I met. I don't know what the future holds for us. Maybe (perhaps unfortunately he might think we should ...) after Dudu, it might possibly also take me years to find someone else, and by then, it might be too late for children. But despite our challenges, I want him to be happy. I respect whatever decision he makes, and I hope we will fight for our relationship and be a good human being on Earth. He has given me hope, and for that, I am grateful.

I trust that the Lord has given me faith and will manage my worries and fears. I pray for peace, confidence, and courage in life. It's incredible how Jesus forgave and blessed his followers, even after being betrayed (Peter betrayed him three times!!!). It's a powerful reminder of his love and grace. And yes, the belief that we can only receive the Holy Spirit through the Lord is profound and central to Christian faith.