Forever Happy Together

My heart feels so full knowing that I have someone as special as my love in my life. His smile is the most important thing to me in the world, and seeing him happy makes me the happiest person alive.

  

I collected some of his favorite chocolates and prepared them as a gift. I also decided to get creative and designed some of our photos by writing messages on them.

I hope that we can stay forever happy together.

Here's to many more happy moments together...

Dudu's birthday

Dudu's first birthday celebration (1/23) with me went down at Keg Mansion, thanks to Matt's recommendation. The rib steak was off the charts😗! Dudu and I were practically doing a happy dance (at home) over that juicy steak and dreamy mashed potatoes. It was a feast to remember!

But then, Dudu got a bit emotional about the birthday spending. Come on, it's his day! I'm all about showing him love and giving him the good stuff. We've been eating with home-cooked meals lately, so a fancy dinner was totally in order—Cupid strikes again! ( I am cupid me.. teeeheee💘)

As we were enjoying the grub, Dudu spilled about his worries in our relationship—mixed backgrounds and communication stuff. It hit me in the feels, thinking maybe he's not sure what he's really looking for.Later on, the "separation" dropped in my mind. I'm thinking Dudu, being the thoughtful guy he is, might be holding back. I wondered if he's secretly longing for a more traditional, same-race vibe.

It's tough to see him all anxious, so I'm tossing around the idea that maybe, if I'm not the one, he doesn't need to stress. I seriously worry about Dudu....

 

Our First Christmas and New Year's Eve

Sinan and I celebrated our first Christmas and New Year's Eve together in Toronto! I had the pleasure of meeting Nancy Yu, Ursula, Cynthia, Kenny, Carol, and an aunt from RHCCC Church. I was overjoyed to reunite with Aunt Sandy and Uncle Wing after a gap of 5 months! They even inquired about our Turkey trip — it's been too long. I miss them dearly; they are adorable seniors.

However, this holiday season, I noticed my love shedding tears lately. Before this, I believed our relationship was flourishing. We were getting to know each other better, cherishing our time together, and overcoming challenges. But, to be honest, I'm uncertain about our path forward. I fear that my presence might be adding pressure. I never expected nationality to be a factor in a relationship.

Dear Lord, grant us the courage to navigate these uncertainties. I truly desire a lifetime with Dudu. I want to cook for him, nurture him with love and care, be his companion, travel together, and shower him with love everyday. At times, I can't bear the thought of him being alone. I want his life to be vibrant with love and color.

Our 7-Month Mensiversary

Time seems to be slipping through my fingers, and today marks the 7-month milestone of Sinan and me being together since that fateful day in March. I still remember every detail of that afternoon vividly – the nervousness, the excitement, and the warmth that Sinan brought into my life. As the clock struck the end of my workday, I found myself hesitating to call an Uber. You see, back then, I had only been driving for two months, and the thought of navigating downtown traffic filled me with anxiety. Catherine, my dear friend, gave me the much-needed encouragement to go downtown to see Sinan and his friends. It meant a lot to me that Sinan remembered I wanted to meet his friends and that he took the initiative to invite me. 

Love, I've come to realize, is all about those little things.The night was daunting with its thick blanket of snow and freezing temperatures, but my heart remained warm. Sinan's hand rested on my shoulder as we all prepared to walk to the restaurant. I was shy and unsure of how to react. And when he saw me getting out of the Uber, he rushed over and lifted me off the ground. My heart raced, and I was torn – should I wrap my arms around him? Would he think I was too forward if I did? So, I hesitated. Inside the restaurant, our hands found each other naturally. I could feel the warmth emanating from his soul. Sinan gazed at me when he thought I wasn't looking, and again, I was caught in a dilemma. Should I make direct eye contact or pretend not to notice? My nerves always seemed to get the best of me. 

Later, in the vehicle with his friend Uugh driving me back home, we shared a kiss in the backseat. It had been a while, and I hoped he didn't notice my hesitation. The kisses were sweet and effortless, a testament to the connection we shared. As his friend dropped me off, I couldn't help but wonder when I'd see him again. All I wanted was for them to get home safely, and I silently thanked myself for taking the leap to meet Sinan. What an incredible and memorable night it was. 

Love is indeed in the little things, in the moments that make your heart race and your spirit soar. Here's to many more months and adventures with Sinan.

Adventures in Turkey: Istanbul, Cappadocia, and Antalya

I'm back with tales from our unforgettable journey through Turkey—our whirlwind adventure through Istanbul, Cappadocia, and Antalya. It all started as a sudden suggestion from me, a moment of clarity amidst the chaos of my school situation. The toxic environment had taken its toll, with late payments, bounced checks, poor management, and an irresponsible owner and principal. 😓 It was time for a change. So, one night, I called up Sinan and proposed that we embark on this adventure together. The joy that surged through me when he agreed was immeasurable. 😄 Our trip was a beautiful blend of love, care, and adventure. 

I had the pleasure of meeting Sinan's friends and family, and staying at his home. Spending time with his family was a highlight. His mom, in particular, was a gracious mum, showing me how to create delectable dishes like lentil soup, curry chicken, and that irresistible chili sauce. Sinan's constant eating and nighttime us-time were a delight. 🍲🍴🌶️ Each day came with a packed itinerary, and there were moments when I struggled to wake up in the morning due to exhaustion. 😴 But amidst all that, one morning stands out as unforgettable. 🌄 It was the day we witnessed hot air balloons painting the sky with their vibrant colors. We hopped into a cab, chasing those balloons, and captured stunning photos from a higher vantage point. It was pure magic. Sinan's dedication to waking up at 4 am just to be with me and fulfill his promise of showing me the hot air balloons left me feeling incredibly loved. It was amazing! 🎈❤️ knowing how Sinan helped his friend in our trip further illuminated his kindness and good-hearted nature. Our journey was more than just sightseeing; it was about the bonds we formed along the way. Friendships made the places we visited even more special. 

👫 One evening, we had an incredible dinner with Murret and his sister. The food was beyond delicious, and I may have embarrassed myself by eating more than my fair share. It's funny how good food has that effect! 🍽️😅 

 After our adventures in Cappadocia, we made our way to Antalya to visit Grandma. She's been a rock in Sinan's life since childhood, and I felt truly grateful for her care. Grandma, if you're reading this someday, please stay healthy. We promise to bring our grandchildren to visit you in the future. 🏡👵 This trip was more than I could have ever imagined—a journey filled with love, new friendships, delicious food, and breathtaking moments. It's a chapter of my life that I'll forever hold dear. 

Prince Edward Island

Thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to come to here again!

Great people, and a new job. 

I want to pour my heart out about my recent trip to Prince Edward Island with my amazing boyfriend. 

It was an unforgettable experience, and I feel so lucky to have him in my life. 

Throughout the entire journey, he took charge of everything, from online check-ins to meticulously planning the itinerary, and even driving us around for five whole days. 

I am truly grateful for his efforts and how he took such good care of me.

I could see the love and adoration in his eyes, and it warmed my heart to know how much he cared about me.

Even during our quiet moments together, such as when we watched episodes of Seinfeld or explored funny videos on YouTube, his compliments continued to make me feel cherished and loved.

During our trip, my mind wandered to a few thoughts that have been on my mind lately...

 One of them is the sad realization that the term "trad wife" has emerged as a way to emphasize the traditional role of a wife in taking care of the family and her husband. 

I believe that being a wife should inherently involve nurturing and supporting the family unit. 

However, it's disheartening to witness the need for a term or trend to remind people of the original meaning of a "wife." 

It should be a natural and unconditional part of the commitment we make to our loved ones.

Sigh....

Another recurring question in my mind is whether it's possible to balance my teaching career while also being fully present in taking care of my future family. 

It's something I often ponder, as I am passionate about both aspects of my life. 

However, deep down, I know that maintaining excellence in both "jobs" simultaneously would be incredibly challenging. 

Some questions: How does a trad wife ensure intellectual growth and prevent feelings of isolation or boredom that may arise from dedicating much of her time to domestic duties? (My mom has showed and proved me it is a 24-7 job that will never end)... 

Depending on the circumstances, a trad wife may face challenges related to financial dependence on the husband. This can raise questions about individual autonomy and the ability to make independent financial decisions.

Sacrifices would need to be made, and it would be a constant juggling act. 

While it may seem impossible to excel at both, I remain hopeful that with open communication and support from my partner, we can find a balance that allows me to pursue my passion for teaching while nurturing our family.

I am grateful for this trip. 

Thank you Lord.